So. Yeah. People of any importance or just those I actually talk to will know what happened. The End.

I see a house early on.
I walk slowly to the welcome mat.
The door looks strong and sturdy.
I look through the window once to see if anyone is home.
I ring the doorbell.
The door opens.
I speak.
The door closes.
I turn around and walk away.
I am looking for another house.

That's my little not-a-poem-just-some-stupid-blob-I-made-up...thingy...

It expressed me. I was thinking it that day.

So that's it. Today is Wednesday. That was Monday.

So lemme update you on stuff you don't wanna hear, but stuff I don't mind sharing:

1. The Math part of the Exit Exam was pretty easy.
2. I sat with Alyssa (from Science) that time. She showed me the games that come on our calculators. I like Block Dude. One supervisor said it was cool, then another came over and said we had to put the calculators away. Hah hah.
3. I had Period 4 that day.
4. Now I'm done with the baby picture of Grandma Lauretta.
5. I want that program at home so when I scan in pictures of myself, I can do stuff to them...oh well. Paint is something I have learned to love...although I'm cheating on it. That doesn't mean I still don't like it for simple things.
6. I went shopping on Saturday with Yoli, Morgan, Mouse, Mom, and...myself! lol We went to Grossmont Center. It was chilly and some of the stores had apple cider (warm, DOUBLE THE GROSSNES!!!) and hot chocolate (or so that's what they CLAIMED it was......) with cookies and chocolate (I didn't touch them). I found some cute clothes, finally. The stores got their minds together and started making cropped sweatshirts and sweaters! THANK YOU! I love them cropped! It's THE BEST idea ever. So adorable. I saw some at Charlotte Russe and one looked OK, but it was brown and I don't have anything that would go with it...but it was cute! My mom said I shouldn't get it. Fine. I found some in Anchor Blue, too. I was gonna buy the green one, but then I switched for purple, then the black one that says "Scandalous". The only Medium was the one on the mannequin. Whatever. I wonder if I'll wear it ever. "Your not scandalous," said Mom. She was mad later that I got that one instead of the green one. "You're not wearing that to school," my dad said, "or to church!" Whatever.
7. Now I'm just broke. I need money. Why did I waste my money at Kohl's and Anchor Blue? I hate November.
8. Hugo said I have nice eyes. OK, that's 2 times in two weeks now (2 diff. people). I am happy. ^_^
9. Although my little thing didn't work out...I still like myself. I am still confident. The next time I decide to do it, it will be earlier and I will be braver. So HAH! I'm ready. Screw shyness.
10. I'm not shy...much...anymore! Wahoo! Except in Dance I feel lonely. Really. I stand around alone with my hands in my jacket pockets and dance unenthusiastically...I'm cold and I feel strange there now.
11. I have that really high-pitched Michelle Branch song stuck in my head...ahhh! GET OUT!
12. I listened to the entire Gwen Stefani CD online. It's good. Hopefully my Mom buys it for me. She's probably doing it right now, unless she did it yesterday...
13. I got my makeup done while shopping on Saturday, by the way. A little too much blush, but I liked it. I woulda' used darker eyeshadow, but she said it was the "daytime" look. Oh, OK then. Cool. I forgive you.
14. I haven't seen Derek & Robert much lately. That sucks. Robert was sick yesterday, but I couldn't fine Derek on Monday or Tuesday. Both those days I ate with Hollee and her boyfriend. Isn't that nice? They let me sit with them. Mom said that was nice. Yeah.
15. I played Spoons today with people in my US History project group. It was fun. I didn't realize I was losing like every time though! Hehehe...I'm a dork! ^_^
16. I'm going to have to get a boyfriend soon. I don't want to spend another Christmas without a boyfriend. It's just not fun. I want to WANT TO buy a present for someone...and actually get it...
17. We're reading "The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn" in English. Hmmm. I like it. It's funny! "...ransomed...to death..." ...hahahaha!!
18. So I actually have a B in English, not an A as I had thought I discovered last Friday. Oh well! My parents were disappointed, but I don't care cuz I know I can raise it up easily.
19. I don't feel like wearing makeup anymore...what's the point? I don't like anyone. I still wear eyeshadow just to make my eyes look more interesting in that small spot of your crinkled-closed lids that people see when you have your eyes open and looking out.
20. I wonder how people think of me at school? Haha, I honestly do not care because in two years we'll all be gone. I think some people just try to make fun of people just to test them. Next time someone says something weird to me, I'll talk back to them instead of ignoring them. Then we'll see who's boss.
21. Maybe I should lower my tolerance to obnoxious people...oh well. Keep 'em coming, if you must...
22. I always wanna make plans, but nothing ever happens. I need to start asking people.
23. I want a boyfriend...just talk to me, guys! I don't bite. I don't do much the first time we talk, actually, but hey! Come back a few more times and I'll like you a lot. It shows you don't give up.
24. I'm on the lookout...

That's about it, people. I know nobody reads this. If you do, I'm not insane. Just bored.

Annnnyway....

Um...yeah. Adios.

--Ash

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