OK. I am going completely crazy.

I absolutely hate my life.

I'm wasting away when I'm supposed to be having fun and I'm just watching everyone else have a good time.

I hate my family.

I think school is OK but I don't know if anyone even cares about me.

I hate Allison.

I hate church and I do not believe in God and I am SO sick of my parents making me go or threatening me when i won't.

I hate San Diego because it's the crappiest city ever and there's nothing to do when you can't drive.

I hate my parents because they are mad at me because I ask them to drop me off at the mall but they tell me I should go with friends. What the hell, I can't freakin' drive myself so how else can I get there? Hmmm...

I wish Allison would die.

She is a total moron and has no conscience at all.

I need a boyfriend because that is the ONLY thing that'll make me happy.

I am sick of being shy.

I am sick of people being stupid.

I am sick of the world being violent.

I don't understand why people lie and hide things from others.

I don't understand why I have to go through all the crap because I'm the oldest and why I get everything last.

I hate people who are materialistic.

I hate people who are racist, sexist, or hate people because of their religion.

I hate people who beat up little Freshmen.

My life is so boring.

Oh, and I also don't understand why people like to swear all the time. And I don't get why a couple swear words are such a big deal at my house.

I don't understand why Allison is a freak.

I don't understand how Mouse puts up with us.

I don't know why me and my dad don't get along better because we are oddly enough very alike even though we both probably try not to think about it.

I don't know why people are so rude and selfish and have to get their way all the time.

I hate how teenagers are always thought of as troublemakers and lazy, even it seems, that many of them are.

I hate how if you aren't a total slut, nobody is going to pay attention to you.

I hate how certain people associate with only another certain type of people.

I don't understand who decides what is popular and what is not because most of the "popular" stuff probably wouldn't be cool if the media didn't tell us who was wearing it at which premiere.

I hate how I have no life and read about celebrities' lives so I can think that at least SOMEONE has some drama or success in their life.

I hate how I have to dye my hair because it wasn't permanent dye.

I hate straightening my hair.

I hate washing my face and feeling like it's doing absolutely nothing.

I hate painting my toenails but then getting the polish all messed up.

I hate how my legs are all scratched and red because my shaving razor is a piece of crap.

I hate how soap always washes off if you try to shave your legs with the water sprinkling down.

I hate putting on makeup for boys that don't care.

I hate wearing rubber bands on braces that have ripped up my mouth and are pulling around teeth that I don't give a crap about.

I hate how we spend so much money on braces and they're only for a stupid smile that I never show because I'm unhappy.

I hate how people can't wear tank-tops to school unless the straps are wide.

I hate how ants exist.

Same with spiders.

And I hate getting off the computer for STUPID UGLY IMMATURE SELFISH CLOSE-MINDED SPOILED Allison my so-called sister....from hell.

Save me.

Please.

--Ash is sad...

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